It doesn't matter!

I was going to write this blog about how I get the impression that people aren't as excited about my wedding as I think they should be.  I was starting to wonder if perhaps people weren't excited because Jim and I have been together for 11 years and well ... it's just old hat now.  But guess what?  I don't care.  If people aren't excited about my wedding I don't care!  I am excited!  And those that are excited, well I just know that they love me and that is all that matters!!

I DON'T CARE!!!


OMG it feels so good to say that!  I don't care!  It's not about you ... it's about ME.  I'm excited.  I'm a little pissed at myself because of the money that I'm spending on people who I know don't care about my wedding but it's a lesson learned.  Hell - I wish I had a time machine and could go back a year and change so many things!  I would make so many changes.

And you know what - I'm going to revamp my guest list.  I know if people truly don't care about me ... I know this.  Why should I include these people in my day?  Man - all I need to have there are those that love me and Jim.  I don't need you there!  Man this is awesome!  I am feeling good!

I am in the home stretch ... I have 5 months left until my big day and I am going to enjoy every last minute of it.  The planning, the preparing, the celebrating.  This is MY time.  Mine and Jim's.  My life is starting and I am excited about it.  Excited about moving in with Jim.  Excited about taking care of him and myself!  Excited about being able to sit on my couch and being able to not answer the phone if my mom calls (lol now I try to tune her out but it doesn't work! ... just kidding mom!)

I'm not going to do anything special to make sure that you are happy ... because it isn't about you.   I'm tired of trying to please everyone else!  I am an awesome person.  AWESOME.  I shouldn't have to do anything extra or special for someone to like me!  If you don't want to be close to me .... guess what?  YOUR LOSS!  I will take my big heart and my wonderful smile and amazing humor and share it with those that are SMART enough to realize that I rock.

AMEN!

TTFN